losing the war...

why do i feel like i'm losing the war?
why do i sense in my mind i'm lost?
why can't the world just make sense...?
i had a dream, more like a nightmare,
there i was, an embrace so strong,
a love so entrancing, deep genuflect...

the happiness was so great, i felt
on top of the world, all i could do
was smile and laugh...oh how i miss
those days...miss them indeed...

why do i feel like i'm losing the war?
why does it seem like this will not last,
why does it feel like my subordinates
have given up, why has morale been shot
to shit? it's not right, it's not fair,
dammit just keep it clear, visualize the
win! now go freakin' get it!

the embrace is lifted, the embrace is gone,
the happiness pours out of me like a broken
cup, spilling along me till i am awash in
a sea of blood...she stood there, simply
cried...the black hooded man said simply
this, "speak now, or forever hold your peace"

i screamed, why didn't she listen, why
can't she look at me...she cried further...
faceless people in the crowds, they pushed
me and prodded me, "never, never" they chanted,
never, never indeed...why was it so hard
to make the right choice? why was it so hard
to just embrace the embrace, let love be love...

why do i feel like i'm losing the war?
why does it feel like she's given up?
i have to stay strong, but at what cost?
why does it feel like i'm losing the war?
i don't know, why not ask her...why aren't
you fighting like i?

...why does it feel like i've lost...?
...maybe it's because i have...


-s.r.petros