losing the war...

why do i feel like i'm losing the war?
why do i sense in my mind i'm lost?
why can't the world just make sense...?
i had a dream, more like a nightmare,
there i was, an embrace so strong,
a love so entrancing, deep genuflect...

Craziness?!

I am seriously stressing out! On the one hand I have this heavy load of schoolwork, which to be honest, I never really stress over, until it's due and I'm stressing about how to get it done.  I am seriously under tons of pressure because I am moving out with some friends and once I graduate I need to get on the ball and get a dang job (which I kind of have options, plus, people hire me cause

My Nightmare

In the cold and dew of August night,
I awoke of dream to such an awful sight,
I screamed a sound, but sound there was not,
How does this corpse, putrid and rot,
Continue to live on in this land of fog?
Squeal of Pig and Bark of Dog...
Is life nothing more than allegory and pain?
Can you like I, stand tall amid the corpses and rain?

remember...or forget...

don't call me ur lover,
we must keep it to ourselves,
don't call me ur boyfriend,
they must not know,
don't call me forever, or beginning,
we know where we are going...

give up

it may be time to quit some time...
when the odds against you are stacked...
when the road before you is littered with obstacles,
when there is no end in sight and you want to give up...
you should...

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if happiness were all it is worth,
i would gladly give mine to her,
if loneliness were all it is worth,
i would take it all from her,
if pain were all it is worth,
i would feel hers so she wouldn't have to,
if love were all it is worth,
i would love her even when she didn't love me...

before and after

in a day life all changed...i asked for a muse
life gave me regret...i begged for solitude,
life tossed me to the wolves, why does the fog
not wither away as does the dust of aged flesh...?
cry your worries, woe your wants, cut the vessel
of juice that lives beneath the surface...

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i asked her to open up and let me in...
in reality i convinced her to be with him...
i laughed i joked, she smiled and she looked,
why couldn't i realize then that my goose was cooked?

misunderstand...

wishy...washy, vivid and null...life of four is two of one...

understand not of concept and virtue, think of trite and florence...

believe not see what do you, life of moment is death of hour

temperance of mind begets spirit of soul...think not do of what see you,

says she not, destroy your yes, remember your everything replaces...

silliness...

silly boy...dont skate so fast, when you fall
and break your leg, you will be sorry...
silly boy, eating dirt is bad for you...
perhaps you should stick to burning ants...
silly boy, she doesnt push you out of love,
but out of detest...

Legalizing and Decriminalizing certain drugs.

There is talk of legalization of Marijuana in California, I recently had a school assignment on this topic I thought I might share.

My thoughts on the legalization and decriminalization of certain drugs.

It is obvious if we take a look at both sides of the argument that there is a level of dissension amongst our ranks. If we take a step back and look at legal drugs like alcohol and tobacco, both of which kill thousands of people each year, the case for certain drugs becomes a simple case of "well if Marlboro can kill people and make money, why can't people smoke pot, laugh, and go to sleep?"

when im with u, i see life
through new eyes...gone are the
ugly browns and hues of gray...
bluer of water, beauty of flower...
wide of sky...

She...

'tis midnight, in the darkness of new moon...
a lone wolf howls longingly for the gentile
silvery light...magick is afoot, the Goddess
abound...reap ye all what ye sow...quiver in
excitement, bathe in ambrosia...

beg...

if one were to presume knowledge of me,
i would have to beg to differ...one can
never fully know that which they do not
take the time to understand...

choice...

too short, too tall
too skinny, too fat...
choice, choice, choices...
Who? What? Where?
When? Why? Whatever...

scream...

scream the mouth of sight and hear...
the masses drink their hate and
spit their love...ignore the call of
bird, slap the face of nature...

way of the eagle...

as the eagle I flew free...
flew above the clouds,
flew below the sea...