happy new years, hope 2011 treats you well!!!

losing the war...

why do i feel like i'm losing the war?
why do i sense in my mind i'm lost?
why can't the world just make sense...?
i had a dream, more like a nightmare,
there i was, an embrace so strong,
a love so entrancing, deep genuflect...

Craziness?!

I am seriously stressing out! On the one hand I have this heavy load of schoolwork, which to be honest, I never really stress over, until it's due and I'm stressing about how to get it done.  I am seriously under tons of pressure because I am moving out with some friends and once I graduate I need to get on the ball and get a dang job (which I kind of have options, plus, people hire me cause

My Nightmare

In the cold and dew of August night,
I awoke of dream to such an awful sight,
I screamed a sound, but sound there was not,
How does this corpse, putrid and rot,
Continue to live on in this land of fog?
Squeal of Pig and Bark of Dog...
Is life nothing more than allegory and pain?
Can you like I, stand tall amid the corpses and rain?

remember...or forget...

don't call me ur lover,
we must keep it to ourselves,
don't call me ur boyfriend,
they must not know,
don't call me forever, or beginning,
we know where we are going...

give up

it may be time to quit some time...
when the odds against you are stacked...
when the road before you is littered with obstacles,
when there is no end in sight and you want to give up...
you should...

untitled

if happiness were all it is worth,
i would gladly give mine to her,
if loneliness were all it is worth,
i would take it all from her,
if pain were all it is worth,
i would feel hers so she wouldn't have to,
if love were all it is worth,
i would love her even when she didn't love me...